puddleluscious

 ive been feeling sentimental for days gone by

 all those summers singing, drinking, laughing

 wasting our time.

 remember all those songs and the way we smiled

 in those basements full of music

""Don't look at me now," she said with eyes that I can hardly take,

"'cause I'm stuck with a smile that doesn't fit me anymore."

She said, "who wants a life that's filled with semesters and useless knowledge

and wasted credits? You could stay here tonight, or maybe forever,

and no one has to know 'cause I won't let that go."

She said with a smile that screams of tears and not another word,

"Gonna spend my nights either sleepless or dreaming about you."

She said, "who wants a life of lost adolescence that's filled with regrets

and antidepressants? I've said it before and you know that I meant it,

you're all I want to know. And I won't let that go."

I can't wait to write you a letter for every day that I can't bear.

You can fill these moments with words like forever, but you gotta swear,

i hate when you cry. i hate when you're sad.

I'm not sure what to even say.
I miss having someone there who really cared. 
I remember looking in his eyes, & being able to see that he cared.
Where did that go?
All I know is if one more thing goes wrong, I'm going to break down. 

Calling old friends to make sure they're real,
talking, talking just to feel that sense of home you lost when you left last 
year. Distance is just numbers on a dashboard, hours thinking about nothing 
but the transmission stutter you fear.

I remember what you whispered in my ear, and all the things we tried so hard to 
never have to hear, like kids tighten up, start saving for the golden year. 
Well, hey, that picture it fades day by day and the outcome's not so clear.

Don't think I'll see you around this winter, and my tongue's stuck full of 
splinters; I'm embarrassed to admit what I've been thinking. Hope keeps some 
afloat, but for me it's no life boat. The tighter I hold on the deeper down I'm 
sinking.